Well, see, he's open about it with me and our close friends, but idk how he feels about me telling others. I don't want him to feel uncomfortable around anyone, though he seems like he's fine. I just don't wanna risk it. LMFAO @ the "best roommates" comment. Idk, though. I mean, even if it were a straight guy, I'd hope that they'd have enough trust in me to let it happen.

On the other hand...well, I guess that the first time I have sex, I will NOT be running to my mom saying, "GUESS WHAT! GUESS WHAT!" Like Len Levi (did I remember his name correctly?) did in JD series, lmfao. So, I guess that's a reasonable concern coming from a parent's perspective. LMFAO!!!! Omg, omg, omg (uh oh), so me and my friend also find one of our professors EXTREMELY cute. Now, just think back to JD. Cute professor. BUT, after my friend did some dirt digging to satisfy his curiosity, we discovered that he is gay, and does indeed have a bf. So, my chances went down (which I don't mind, since I just think he's cute, but have no romantic interest in him. He's just a bit of scenery...), but my friend's went up, lolz, so we've been joking around about that.

Oh! AND - just to keep you up to date - there's this guy that I'm showing interest in. He and I met up the second class, and started talking, and now whenever we see each other, we stop for a short conversation, and then it was really cute, 'cause during our last class, (which was just our second time meeting) he at first sat with one seat between us, the way we'd sat the class before ('cause two friends I'd made sat on either side of me), but right after he sat down, he got back up and scooted into the seat next to me xD

Now, the only thing is that idk if that's a sign that he likes me as a dating option or not. Remember that I'm flirtatiously dysfunctional, so I'm TRYING to look for queues. I feel like he MIGHT be hinting at hanging out sometime, 'cause for instance he's been talking about movies he wants to see (he asked if I wanted to see zombieland, but just in a conversational way), and he'll like stand up and be like, "Well, idk about you, but I'm hungry" after class, and when I was talking about going into town for some food he mentioned that he hadn't checked out town and wanted to go there sometime.

I think that maybe I'm trying TOO hard, though, lol. I mean, do those sound like hints that he might want me to show interest? I keep getting worried about sounding desperate and finding out that I turned casual conversation into possible dating hints, but I still think I might see if he'd like to go to see a movie or something with me. I hope I don't chicken out again, LMAO. I mean, I won't really have anywhere to run if I do it before class, so maybe that's my best option. Honestly, I could care less if it turned out that he didn’t like me like that. I don’t mind being single, lol, but I don’t want to sit by if he DOES like me and let him just pass. LOL and then one of the times we ran into each other on campus, I was – of course – with my gay friend, so I was a little concerned that he might jump to conclusions, but after he said hi to me, he was very polite and introduced himself to my friend before talking to me again, and I just said that we’d gone to high school together, so I think that cleared up the issue.

Oh god, I’m worrying too much, haha, sorry that you had to read all of that. But y’know, I’m nervous! I feel more confident about him than I usually do, and it’s making me think that I’m misjudging things. But, what’s the worst that can happen? He can say no…and there might be SOME awkwardness, but I figure that’s better than sitting around bashing my head into the desk for not having the guts to ask!

Obsessively yours,
M XD

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